I want so badly to to write something that is inspiring, or moving, or even something intellectual, but my brain refuses to come out of hibernation. I have spent most of the day cleaning or curled up in bed. The past few days I've just wanted to be alone. There are only a select few people that I really really wanna see, most of which I will see tomorrow at school. Others, well who knows?
I was listening to some old songs today. one song in particular made me think about one person. the lyrics are:
I'm so scared that The way that I feel Is written all over my face When you walk into the room I wanna find a hiding place We used to laugh We used to hug The way that old friends do But now a smile and A touch of your hand Just make me come unglued It's such a contradiction Do I lie or tell the truth? Is it fact or fiction The way I feel for you? CHORUS: It's so complicated I'm so frustrated I wanna hold you close I wanna push you away I wanna make you go I wanna make you stay Should I say it Should I tell you How I feel? Oh, I want you to know But then again I don't It's so complicated. Just when I think I'm under control I think I finally got a grip Another friend tells me that My name is always On your lips They say I'm more Than just a friend They say I must be blind Well I admit that I've seen you watch me From the corner of your eye Oh it's so confusing I wish you'd just confess But think of what I'd be losing If your answer wasn't yes Repeat chorus I hate it 'cause I've waited so long For someone like you Should I say it Should I tell you How I feel? Oh I want you to know But then again I don't It's so complicatedThe last blog I posted.. in some ways I regret posting it, because I'm scared.. terrified, actually. However, in my first blog I promised to be completely honest. So, I won't delete it. I'm going to just take what ever happens. I don't know if mentioned persons have read the blog, but if and when they do, I'll deal with whatever happens. I'm a strong person. I'll take what I can get from him, because I do love him so very much. I'd rather have his friendship than to completely lose him. I'm not strong enough for that. But, I guess we'll see where this goes.
-L
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